Day 3

Well today was tough
been sore all over and felt a bit fluey in my head but i managed to take Marci into town for a few hours which was good!

At dinner time my doctor came, he has got me a bed in a drug addiction unit in 2 weeks time and they say they can have me off codeine in a week!!!
So i have to think long and hard about it!!
I feel its the best option as atr home if it gets too much i can all to easily just pop to town and buy some pills! Tho being at home i can be with Marci alot more than i could in hospital!!

But all in all i think rehab is probably the best option, i can get professional care and they can regulate the withdrawal pains etc better than i can at home! I mean what is one week out of the rest of my life! A life i really want to get back!!

They have replaced my normal painkillers that contain codeine and paracetemol with just codeine as the paracetemol is what does damage to your liver and kidneys! I had an ultrasound done 3 weeks ago of that area and thankfully they are all fine and normal looking!!
Im surprised after 12 years of popping pills!!!

One week just one week and ill be codeine free!! I hope so
I know it will be a hard long week but it will be worth it!!

If i dont kick the pills to touch now i think i may never do it!
But with love and support i know i can do it!
In the end i HAVE to do this for myself and nobody else!! I want to be back to the old Davy who loved to go play football and run about having a laugh and i wasnt as sensitive as i am now i was well, normal i guess!

I was just a normal guy, who liked to go out to the cinema or to the pub with the lads or play footy in the park!! People didnt stare at me cos im so wobbly and skinny!!! Now i scare kids lol im like deaths brother lol
I have always been thin but not this thin! Once im off the pills im sure i can gain some weight and get to a healthy weight and be gorgeous again (gorgeous I WISH lol)

Time will tell if it works it works
If it fails ill keep on trying but i cannot give up
I wont give up!!!!